inked

i got a tattoo.



it didnt hurt that bad...or at least as i thought it would.


i'm not really satisfied it how it came out though.


but it can be fixed. like how i want it.


give a lot of thought into what you want before you go and get it.

alright...

fuck work.


i like my job, but working 8 am to 8pm, just so the guy who owns the company can come in and marvel at all his glory for 10 minutes, is ridiculous.


i'm tired and weak.

i want to stencil this image...



onto a white shirt with black and [maybe] blue print...


that says "never a good day" on it.




sounds simple right?

as in the fall

...just some photographs i found of the helio sequence that i thought were breath taking.

...!!

it's not that simple...

on our way back from temple my boyfriend and i came to a minor halt in traffic on interstate 35 on our way back home to austin.

cops and ambulances were everywhere and we had no idea what was going on. i took out my camera cause i didnt know what i was going to see, but i knew it was something that i would want to remember forever.






after seeing that, my heart dropped and i had to take a deep breath. i dont know if you can see but there was blood on the ground...that's what got to me the most. seeing the blood.






realization: i dont know what i really want in life. i dont know what's next for me. i dont know what else is out there. i DO know that i want to live my life to every extant. experience every kind of happiness there is out there. no one knows for sure when their life is gonna come to an end...and that's my point. i havent been living my life the way i want to live it.

i want to have a new experience everyday. i want new and different things in life.
new experiences, new people, new music, new thoughts...everything. it doesnt have to be new but different. at least enough for my hear to explode out of pure bliss.




random picture:




meg and jack use to be lovers, but now they can be friends and sing happy thoughts.